Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Listicle of Not Feeling Too Great

Posted by Abby at 4:23 PM
I just decided to make a list of how I've been feeling and what I've been thinking about recently.

1. My parents drove up to visit me at my college this past weekend, which was awesome.  I have been so homesick for the past few weeks, it was nice to see them after a couple months of being away at school.  I am still super homesick, though.  I miss driving my car.  I miss my bedroom.  I miss my parents's cooking.  I miss my cat.  I miss the lights hanging in my room.  I miss everything.  Getting to see my parents helped for the weekend, but now that they've left, I'm just sad again.  I cannot wait to go home for Christmas.  

2. Since I don't really know that many people at college yet (even though I kind of expected to have a group of friends after being here for over two months) I'm always hanging out with the same three or four people.  Sadly, as I've been seeing so much of them recently, I've become a bit annoyed with them.  I don't know if it's just me with this issue or not, but if I see someone too often they start to bother me.  If I sound like a bad person or a bad friend, I don't mean to.  I stay friendly when I'm with them, but I could really go for a new crowd of people.  The situation kind of sucks.

3. The new people that I'm meeting are really nice, I'm just not very close with them.  All of them seem to have their lives so put together, though.  They know what they want to do, they've had super awesome internships in New York already, they just seem to know how everything works.  I know I will (hopefully) get to that point someday, with experience and all that, but for now I just feel very intimidated.

4. I've recently become very concerned with my weight, which has never really been an issue for me before.  I've always felt that I was slightly overweight, but just this past week I have been feeling horrible.  It was basically all that I could think about, and I had convinced myself that I have gained about 15 pounds, which I hadn't.  I'm feeling better now, but still not exactly happy with the way I look.

5. I have been feeling overwhelmingly bored and lonely recently.  I feel as though I have no close friends, and all my old friends have completely replaced me.  Again, it sucks.  I just want to be in the opposite of where I am.  But, when I think about being anywhere else, I feel like I would be unhappy there, too.  I'm not sure if that makes sense, but basically I just feel like I can't be happy right now.

This post may make it seem like I'm a super sad person, but I don't think I am.  When I'm with people, I usually end up laughing and talking normally.  It's just when I'm alone, I start to feel a little down.


  1. Hey Abby - I just stumbled across your blog and this post and just had to say something. I really feel for you - it's horrible to be lonely and to feel like you don't have any close friends to talk to. I never went away to college / university, so I don't know what that's like, but I have had times in my life when I've not had close friends to confide in, or times when it feels like your friends have moved on and that your friendship is not the same anymore. I really hope things get better for you soon - maybe you've just not met the right person / crowd yet. Your college is probably a big place and there are going to be so many different groups of people there that you'll find the right one for you soon. Are there maybe any clubs you could join where you'd meet more people / be able to get to know people better? That might be a good idea. Twitter's also a great place to chat to people if you don;t have any of your real life friends around. I made some great new friends just through starting a blog and getting on twitter! I'm sorry I can't help more and I really hope that you'll feel happier and more settled really soon :)

    Gem x | flutter and sparkle

    1. This was such a sweet comment to read, thank you so much!! Yeah, clubs are helping and I've been meeting a lot of great people through them, I'm just not very close with them. Hopefully as time passes I will become closer with some of them :)



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